BuSiNeSs?!?!?!

Ok it’s been my 3rd day that I never get any sleep. Yes, I feel groggy or floating paper but I really can’t sleep. I feel depressed and frustrated. I don’t know what to do with my business. The recruitment industry is down and our clients are gone. It’s so upsetting but what should I do? I can’t relax and my brain doesn’t stop thinking. I talked to hubby again about relocating in a big city the other night but I just waste my time again. I used to live in a big city for more than 5 years in the Philippines and I can’t imagine myself living in a big city again specialty here in America but because of what is going on right now, I want to do it. But hubby really don’t like it and he’s been busy too for almost 2 weeks now trying to finish the drawing of the house that we’re going to build. I saw a job for Mechanical Engineer in Sparks, Reno the other night but hubby think it’s not worth it. Although I thought it is because the salary is by weekly and it’s more than 4k every 2 weeks. That’s a lot to my imagination especially right now that our business is not doing good. Unfortunately, hubby used to get double of that rate almost 9 yrs ago and also he said that he wants to build the house so he is not looking for job. But gosh… I feel crazy when I don’t get any money. The situation of my business right now makes me upset so easy. It’s so hard when you used to get a lot of money and then all of a sudden it stop. My heart is full of what ifs’ and fear. I wish I am like my hubby that is so relax but I am not. He keeps telling me to trust God… yeah, I do trust God but I need to do something. I can’t just sit here. Anyway, I sent some proposal again to few hospitals just hours ago. Hopefully, I hear something. Okay enough of my drama. I better go back to work.